fredag 10 november 2017

Life altering changes

I’ve made a decision to go through with some huge changes in my life. I’ll stay away from social media and focus my time on my family and my writing. 
I want to do the right thing, to be present with my family instead of looking into a phone. I don’t want to be missing out on life. Neither my own or my loved ones. 

That means my blogging days are over. I’ve been doing this for over eight years, and I’ve enjoyed it immensely, but there is always an end to everything, and my blog and my blogging has finally come to it’s end. 

Thank you for stopping by, some of you for years and years. Fingers crossed you’ll be reading my text in other forms in the future, preferably in a published book of mine, or ten! ;)

Laters babes!

Over and out
Pusspuss 

torsdag 9 november 2017

Traveling

Tomorrow I fly to Copenhagen for a city weekend. I’ve never traveled alone outside of work like this before so I’m both looking forward to, and feeling a bit anxious about my weekend away from home. It’s a challenge to try and enjoy the city all by myself. Well actually exploring the city is the easy part, it’s the dining thingy that’ll be most challenging. I’m not choosing the easy way out (either dining at McDonalds or by using room service), at least not both nights. 😜

I’ll bring you along and post lot of pictures!

Laters babes!

Over and out
Pusspuss 

onsdag 8 november 2017

I know

I know, I’ve been a terrible blogger these last few days. I’ll try to do better. I haven’t been busy, I just haven’t felt that usual need to write. Strange. But hopefully I’m back at it now!

I’ve had a busy day at work, lots of meetings and interviewing people for a position at my department. As you know I like being busy, and when “being busy” also entails meeting new and interesting people, well then I consider that to be a successful day!

As I’m sure I’ve told you multiple times, this time of year is truly not a favourite of mine. The days are just too short! Arriving at work in the morning when it’s still dark out, and then driving home in darkness too, without having been outside in daylight - I hate that! 
I do admit though, it’s nice to cuddle up on the couch at night and lighting candles, while drinking a cup of tea and relaxing with my kindle at night. And these dark and cold nights are perfect for that! 👌🏻

Only one more workday left this week. On Friday I’m leaving for Copenhagen and a weekend of fun (hopefully). First time ever that I travel on my own (outside of work), and it’s kind of scary. But it’s a challenge, a fun one, that I’m looking forward to experience! Have you traveled on your own?

Laters babes!

Over and out 
Pusspuss 

söndag 5 november 2017

Slow down kind of day


I haven’t been sleeping that much lately, so I decided to take it slow today. And so I did, slowing down and relaxing most of the day accompanied by Charlie the cat. I think I might be his favourite place to rest on. As soon as I sit down on the couch he’s there. And if I don’t make room for him on my lap he just sit there next to me meowing until I do. And I love it. ❤️

I don’t mind at all to be his favourite person, even if in his world that only means he thinks of me as a favourite and very cuddly bed! 😆

Laters babes!

Over and out 
Pusspuss 

lördag 4 november 2017

Your silence does not protect you

There’s this TED-talk that everyone should be forced to sit down and watch. And I mean everyone, man and women, teenagers and old people. Everyone. It’s told by Thordis Elva and Tom Stranger, a rape victim and her rapist. I know, it sounds frightening and painful, provocative, challenging and scary. It is. But it’s so much more too. You find it here! You can also buy their book “South of forgiveness” and read their story.

In an Instagram post today, Thordis Elva writes “Your silence does not protect you.” and she continues “I could not carry on with my life without giving my voice a pair of wings.” I’m sure the words are somewhat out of context, but to me they’re enough to push me forward, away from old tracks. They made me put wings on my own words, making my voice fly too.


Thordis Elva, your voice and the words you gave wings, has made me able to do the same. To voice what I’ve kept hidden and to give my words wings. 
I don’t feel shame (any longer), I know (now) that I was not to blame, but I’ve let this secret of pain and hurt weigh me down for so long, making me lose sight of what matters. It’s been eating, feasting even, on my self worth and strength, weakening me. Even blinding me at times. 

I made a decision earlier this year, and I’ve written about that here on the blog, to forgive the man who did this to me. The man who molested and abused me as a child. For years. A man who spent hours telling me how worthless I was and how I would fail my life, from as early as 8 or 9 years of age. And onwards. He was supposed to be a father figure in my life (not my dad though) but he doesn’t deserve that title, the responsibility connected with it was clearly lost on him.

I’ve been fighting this decision, forgiveness, truly fighting it within, because it made me feel like I was loosing this one final battle with him (although being long gone from my life). If I gave it up, if I let him win, it would mean that I would finally give in and accept what happened. And what was maybe worse, that it would make it ok. My acknowledgment would make it ok. All that happened would have been ok. No one would be punished, because there’s nothing wrong with it ever happening. Things like that are supposed to happen to girls like me. So if I stopped fighting this battle, if I let him win, I would lose myself. 

Then a friend told me: “It’s not a contest. You can neither win nor lose. No matter how long you make this take. You can only choose to let it bring you down or not. You can choose to stay lost or you can find your own way out of it. I will help you if you let me. Be strong. Be you.”
I might have heard words close to this during all these painful years gone by, but this was the first time I really listened. 

So I forgave him. I made a decision and I forgave him. I whispered it. I voiced it out loud. I thought it and I even dreamt about it. 
“I. Forgive. You. It will never be ok. You just don’t do awful and hurtful things like that to another human being, or other living creature for that matter. No matter if they’re young or old. You. Just. Don’t. It’s all kinds of wrongs! But still, I forgive you.”

It’s taken me over twenty years but I’m finally on my path of healing and peace. I made it through. I’m strong and powerful, and I’ll use that strength to put wings on words so that stories like mine or that of Thordis Elva, travels the world until everyone has heard them and the world finally is a safe place for all, no matter your gender, your age, your heritage or what you’re wearing. No matter the story, it needs to be told, to set us free. No more secrets. No more shame. No more fear. I will fight for all those who lost their strength, just like Thordis Elva, Yoga girl or Linnèa Claeson (IG @assholesonline ) and so many more amazing women and men out there. Together we’re strong. Together we’ll change the world!

No is a no is a no!
#metoo
#stillnotaskingforit

Laters babes!

Over and out 
Pusspuss 

fredag 3 november 2017

Short day at work

I left work at 12,30 today, and although being a short day it was completely packed with meetings and urgent issues needing my attention. But after having driven to work in full sunshine this morning, nothing could get me in a bad mood or feeling stressed. Even my heart was filled with smiles! ❤️☀️

Tomorrow I’m planning on sleeping in (usually backfires when you have a five year old in the family, but I’ll try 😆) and enjoying a slow breakfast before leaving mini me at her BFFs house on a play date. And I’m changing tires on my car, well not me exactly, but the guys on the workshop will. It’s been icy a few days this week when driving to work, so I need to get my winter tires on to drive safe. Do you change tires on your car too during winter, or is this a Swedish thing? 

Laters babes!

Over and out
Pusspuss 

torsdag 2 november 2017

Going with the flow


It’s been a busy week at work, and as the daylight is all gone by the time I leave work, this time of year, I’m feeling more tired than usual. It’s like I don’t have more energy left after having left work. I go home, make dinner, take care of the house and then putt mini me to bed. And when I’m all done with that I’m more than ready for bed, but of course that would be way too early so I force myself to stay awake (by working mostly). Reading or watching tv is like asking to sleep, my eyes are closed within minutes. 

Tomorrow is a short day at work though. It’s the day before the Swedish All Hallows’ Eve which means that we only work 4 hours instead of the usual 8, and thereby leaving work around lunchtime (depending on the time you start working). Also meaning that I will get to enjoy daylight tomorrow and hopefully getting an energy refill! Next week is going to be a busy one too, but I’m leaving for Copenhagen on Friday so I’ll only be working Monday to Thursday. It’s going to be a fun trip, for sure. I love Copenhagen, it’s a beautiful city. 🙏🏻

Now I’m off to bed though. Need to close my eyes for a bit. 😬

Laters babes!

Over and out 
Pusspuss 


tisdag 31 oktober 2017

Slow night

Haven’t really been doing anything productive since I got home from work. Have you? I’ve been looking online for new furniture to our new apartment, but as I don’t have the correct measurements yet it’s really just a waste of time. I won’t be ordering anything before I know it’ll fit the room. Been there, done that. 

Buying my own first apartment, quite a few years back (but let’s not get sidetracked here 😜) I ordered all the furniture before having gotten the keys to the apartment. The couch and the two armchairs I had imagine to be perfect, turned out to be huge in that living room and claimed most of the space, making it feel cramped. And the kitchen table didn’t fit the kitchen at all, so I had to return it. So this time around I’m waiting until I can measure the rooms before placing an order. 😜 But at least I got an idea of what I want.

Now I’m off to bed though. I have an early morning workout in the gym planned first thing tomorrow. Need to be at my best = well rested for that.

Laters babes!

Over and out
Pusspuss 


måndag 30 oktober 2017

Busy day but still...

Busy day at work but still time to goof around in between meetings (with a little, or a lot, of help from Snapchat). It’s Halloween 🎃 so had to go with that!

Wore my new ring today, and it’s going to be a favourite for sure.

Very suitable also regarding where I work (The Swedish Species Information Centre)! I’m going to ask one of the biologists which species this is specifically. 😜
It’s a ring from Johanna N. You find here here:
Instagram/Twitter/Facebook: johannanswe
And you can buy her beautiful jewellery here

Laters babes!

Over and out 
Pusspuss 

söndag 29 oktober 2017

Sunday funday my way

Sunday’s funday, right! Well in that case I’ll spend it my kind of fun - with my nose down a book! In my pjs. On the couch. Drinking tea (and/or a cafe latte) and eating dark chocolates. 👌🏻

And no, I didn’t stay dressed in my pjs all day. I would have, if I was home alone, but being a mother of a five year old kind of gives you obligations. So, I dressed and went for a walk in the cold with mini me and hubby. It was not really pleasant, weather wise. It’s freezing cold outside! 😳

But, when coming back home again I warmed myself in a hot bubble bath and then slipped into that comfy pj again. Dating my kindle of and on, most of the day. Got to enjoy that last day of vacation before going back to work. 😜📚❤️

Laters babes!

Over and out 
Pusspuss 

lördag 28 oktober 2017

I left

I left this...








For this...
+5 C, rain and boring gray skies. 🙄

But, on the good note, we sold the apartment yesterday! 🙌🏻 And today we’re picking up our two four legged family members. How I’ve missed them! ❤️❤️❤️

Laters babes!

Over and out 
Pusspuss 

torsdag 26 oktober 2017

Just one more day

Tomorrow night we’re leaving Villajoyosa and Spain. Saying goodbye to our loved ones that’ll stay for another month, and to the beautiful and warm weather here. Gosh, I’m going to miss walking down to the beach after breakfast wearing only my bikini and flip flops, and enjoying an amazing day listening to the waves rolling in on the sand as the sun kisses my skin.

Life’s so simple and easy here, I’m really going to miss that.  

I still haven’t gone for a swim. The water might just look inviting and warm, but it’s only deceiving you. It’s freaking freezing!

But strangely most people seem to enjoy it. I really tried today, but I couldn’t go further than this (above). I’m such a wimp! 😬

Laters babes!

Over and out 
Pusspuss 

onsdag 25 oktober 2017

Sunshine

I spent most of my day on the beach today too. That cold weather at home makes me wanting to soak up as much sunshine and warmth as I possibly can before leaving on Friday night. 

So yes, another one of those annoying bare legs, sand and ocean pic from me, but do not think to much of it. In two days I’m on my way home again and these pics are no more, promise! Not until my next trip south at least, seeking the sun. 

I wasn’t a total lazy butt today, I did make an effort and went for a run as the sun was setting. My legs felt kind of heavy, so I didn’t feel like I had the best of runs, but I conquered that same hill as I struggled with this summer, at my first try! That felt good! And then I finished off my run with those stairs I ran every other day on my vacation here in July.

They don’t look that hard in this picture, but it’s three more levels after the one in the pic. Love them! 👌🏻💪🏻

And now I’m off to bed, dating my Kindle. 

Laters babes!

Over and out 
Pusspuss 

tisdag 24 oktober 2017

Beach day

Words from home is telling us about temperatures closing in on subzero and snow falling not far from home. Being a beach lover news like that kinds of make you question where you live in the world. We’ve had + 26-28 C here since arriving and that’s more like my preferred temperature. So knowing what awaits us on Saturday when we wake up in our beds at home again, we’ll that kinda makes it easier to truly enjoy our time here. Easy choice this morning then when looking out on a clear blue sky, a day at the beach was a given!

Such an easy choice!

It might look like it, but I wasn’t really as alone on the beach as you might think. But it wasn’t hard either to find a spot to occupy for the day. 
Me enjoying myself in the sun. ❤️

And yes, I had to have some ice cream to top of my Kindle date!

Newly showered and ready for dinner!

Such a beautiful walk, as the sun was setting.

And the light on the other side of the beach walk was so much brighter (at least for another minute or two) as the sun was setting. Strange how it can look so different just turning around on the spot.

After dinner I had the best ice cream I’ve ever had! Leche Merengada. Absolutely divine! Cinnamon and lemon. I could eat that every day for the rest of my life and nothing else, and still be happy! Pure joy! I don’t care if it makes me fat, I’ll eat that every day here until we fly home! 😂

How’s your day been?

Laters babes!

Over and out 
Pusspuss 

måndag 23 oktober 2017

Another train ride

I haven’t really been great at working out since I got here, but at least I went on a powerwalk this morning as the sun was rising from the ocean.


Today I took the train in the opposite direction from yesterday’s scenic route, this one not quite as scenic, but in parts really beautiful. The destination for the day was Alicante. A visit at the food hall (that is supposedly amazing), enjoying a really tasty Spanish lunch and then a short shopping session at Primark. Those were the goals. The food market was a disappointment, mostly because we arrived too late to be able to enjoy all of it. Many of the stalls were closed down already, but visiting in the morning is probably a more enjoyable event. The lunch was kind of mediocre, I only had potata bravas, and they were tasty, but the others food was kind of bland and tasteless. I didn’t try it though, so I’m not complaining, I was happy with my order.
The shopping was a success though. Well, at least for mini me who almost got a totally new wardrobe. Primark is really cheap and the quality isn’t super great, but their clothes are perfect to use at kindergarten! So she got five pairs of trousers, one pj, seven panties, six pairs of socks, one shirt, four jumpers, one t-shirt, two winter hats and gloves. She was very happy when leaving. 

After shopping for mini me, I deserved some Häagen-Dazs. Dulce de leche and chocolate for me!

A train ride back and it was getting dark as we stepped inside the house again. 

Love the view from the balcony! 

And how everyone dry their laundry outside. You rarely see that happening in Sweden.

Now I’m off to bed. Tomorrow morning I’m going for a run! 👌🏻

Laters babes!

Over and out 
Pusspuss 

söndag 22 oktober 2017

Train ride

This afternoon we took the scenic route along the Costa Blanca coast line, by train (or tram). Doing those expected touristy stuff, sightseeing the area. Leaving Villajoyosa and ending up in Calpe where the train ride ended to be continued by bus another hour to Denia. We weren’t really up to that though, so we took the train back and made a quick stop in Altea for a “fika” by the sea. I do recommend you to take the train ride and I really wished the train had continued on to give us more of that beauty. The bus ride just didn’t sound or feel as fun.

I took a lot of beautiful pictures of the trip, mostly shorter film clips actually, so I won’t be posting them here. You’ll find at least one of them on my IG account. This picture is taken when we got back to Villajoyosa. The last rays of the sun made the mountain look so pretty.

Tomorrow is supposed to be colder than today so we’re thinking of different plans. I’ll let you know what we decided on doing. 

Hopefully I’ll get some moments in the sunshine. 🤞🏻

Laters babes!

Over and out 
Pusspuss 

lördag 21 oktober 2017

Vacay mode

I’m in Spain enjoying a warm and sunny start to my one week vacation.

It’s been about +26 C today and no clouds in the sky. The sea was too cold for my tasting though, I put both my feet in it and then immediately stepped back up on the beach again. 😆

But it wasn’t a big issue for me, I was happy and content just relaxing in the sunshine. The rest of the family went into the water though, and a lot of others on the beach. I’m just very particular with the needed temperature for me to enjoy myself in the water. 

We went on a walk through our village in the afternoon, and tried a new way, in the opposite direction to the way we usually go. 

A nice walk, that ended with me spotting a silk heron.

Not the best pic I know, but the distance was too far to get a good one with the phone.

I’ll post more pics tomorrow. 

Laters babes!

Over and out 
Pusspuss 

torsdag 19 oktober 2017

Spinal manipulation

Visited my chiropractor today and he was upset with me for not having made an appointment earlier. “No wonder you’re in so much pain” he said while doing that scary spinal manipulation. He started off with a long massage to soften up and relax my muscles in the back and neck, then the manipulation started. It sounds terrible, especially when doing the neck, but it feels great afterwards. 🙌🏻🙏🏻🙌🏻

He also gave me some new exercises to continue on working with my back. I will never have a normal/healthy spine, but working out correctly and taking good care of my spine, I will at least be pain free. That’s my goal. Be as good as I possibly can and hopefully without hurting too badly.

Now I’m off to bed, feeling very tired and ready for a week of vacationing in Spain. 

Leaving this gorgeous little guy and his sister at home, or rather at their loving second family’s home. My fabulous BFF Jezz. ❤️

Laters babes!

Over and out 
Pusspuss 

onsdag 18 oktober 2017

Back pains and sunshine

I’ve had problems with my back ever since my baby was born almost six years ago. I gained over 25 kilos in weight when being pregnant with her and maybe it’s all that extra weight that gave me these problems? I’m not completely sure where they come from, but it’s easy to blame the pregnancy. I’ve done x-rays, I’ve seen countless of doctors, chiropractors and physiotherapists, and at times the pains have been next to none, and, as now, the pain is taking over completely. Making it hard to find a suitable position to feel pain relief and doing terrible things to my posture. And making me eat painkillers as candy (not strong ones, have decided to stay away from those). 

I’m not sure what started the pains this time, but I admit that it might have to do with me working out like a crazy person in Canada. At least that is when I started feeling the pain intensify. I’ve tried to rest my back muscles from heavy lifting and only stuck to running last week, but it doesn’t seem to have helped, so I’m not doing that either this week. Only resting. And seeing my chiropractor tomorrow! I had planned to do that after getting back from Spain, but making my appointment online tonight I found a spot tomorrow at lunchtime so I snatched that! I hope he can help me with the worst pain, and gives me the right exercises to keep it away! Fingers crossed! 🤞🏻

But! Although feeling that constant pain in my spine, I can’t feel anything other than happiness as the last ray of sunshine hits my face on the way home from work! What a beautiful autumn day we’ve had today! The air crisp and a bit chilly, and the sunshine making the yellow and orange leafs on the ground glow like gold. A day made for happy smiles!

I’ll tell you all about my visit at my chiropractor tomorrow! 

Laters babes!

Over and out 
Pusspuss 

tisdag 17 oktober 2017

Two more days

Two more days and then I’m off to my vacation in Spain. One week of sunshine and warmth (I hope. Fingers crossed.) and some nice running along the beach in the evenings. I’ve really missed those amazing views from my runs there this summer. It makes the running so much more fun. 

It’s not the best time to leave work, but it rarely is in my line of work. I’ve already made plans to join in on a meeting through Skype, but I’m fine with that. I’ll probably need/want a break from the sun anyway. 😆

Laters babes!

Over and out 
Pusspuss