söndag 23 april 2017

Memories from the past

"The path ahead of me is covered in dried up leaves and they tickle under my bare feet as I hurry up my steps. The summer has been dry so far but the air is heavy, filled with building pressure. I prolong my steps, eager to get there, to feel safe. The branches from the surrounding brushwood is tearing at my bare arms as I start the climb up the hill. I can already see the old cabin with part of its roof caved in. Broken. It's dangerous to be  here, so close to the house, or to enter it,  but still I venture on. I need to be close, to feel safe. 

My heart is beating fast and I'm breathing hard as I reach the top. I can feel sweat drip down my spine and I try to breath normally again as I slow down my pace. I can already smell the magnolias growing wild in front of the window where the kitchen used to be. It's empty now. Not even the old cast iron stove is left. Gone. The house is just like me, empty and broken. I don't enter although it calls for me, to be filled with life and meaning again, instead I pick some of the magnolias as I pass them and walk around to the back of the house. I walk to the the rim of the rock just behind the back porch. The view is part of why I love this place. The open sky and the never ending fields of barley and oats that almost reach the ocean at the horizon. I never tire of watching the wind caressing the fields, making them move in flowing waves of yellow. The old oak tree stands firm in the middle of it all and as always I wish I could go there, to climb it's old branches and envy the beauty of its unknown history. But there's no road, no path, no simple way to reach it. I've tried, but somehow nature's keeping me away by setting impenetrable obstacles in my way.

I take a few steps back and slide down against the rough wall of the house when my shoulders touches the timber. Just as I feel the ground on the back of my thighs the sky lits up with lightning and the thunder rumbles high above my head. It scares me and makes my entire body shiver with fear. I can feel it coming, the rain. The air is moist and the wind is rougher than before, tearing my clothes and cooling my skin. I hug my legs tight to my chest and rest my head on my knees. I am here to seek comfort and shelter. From this place. No rain or thunder will keep me from it. I close my eyes and try to let go of my fears. 

The rain starts to trail down my face and mix with my tears. The smell of the magnolias soothes me and I can feel my tensions let go. I know I don't have much time, so I open my eyes. I know I am alone. The familiar sounds of the surroundings tells me so. The rain has stopped and as the heavy drops lingering in the trees makes there way over the leaves and falling to the ground I hear the blackbird sing, making my heart smile. No one knows of this place. Or they might, but they don't know it's mine. Where I go to hide from them and the world. They wouldn't look for me here. This is where I come to gather strength. To bury my fears. To let go of pain. I draw strength from the house and from this place that once were a place of happiness and family. All the signs of it still lingers on. Small signs of evidence that fills my heart with hope. I'm too young to loose sight of it. To question life. And I fight hard to still be me, to be that child you see. Innocent and without being burdened by dark secrets."

I've been thinking for a long time that I should tell you this story, so tonight I did. I once had a secret place where I could hide from the world. Now it rests within me.
Laters babes!

Over and out 

lördag 22 april 2017

Saturday fun

I started off my Saturday with a run on the treadmill at the gym before giving my legs a challenge. I know I've said it before but I looove leg day at the gym. It's more fun working out the parts that's already strong, than the weak parts (like my arms, shoulders and back). 😜
Love my workout pants from Stronger Sweden. I have two different pairs and I love them both! 👌🏻
I've used Asics running shoes ever since my career as a soccer player (good old days). They're a great fit for my feet! I know I shouldn't use them when working out in the gym as they're too soft, but I my weights aren't really that heave so I'm not sure it would make any difference. 

Although having played soccer for 15 years I really hate running. I know I've told you this before. But now it's starting to feel really good. Don't get me wrong, it's still boring, but my strength and endurance is improving! 👌🏻

Tomorrow mini me's BFFs coming over for a play date so I won't have time to go to the gym, but I've got an appointment with one of my besties on Monday so I guess tomorrow will be a rest day. Or not, two five years old will have me on my toes all day for sure! 😆

Laters babes!

Over and out

fredag 21 april 2017

One word

Just one word is needed to describe my needs for this particular Friday evening; chocolate
Well, I guess you could ad a second one; "tea", but it has a lot lower priority so it's not as important. 😜
Found this old picture of me earlier today. I'm not sure why I chose to picture only half of my face, but maybe I had something to hide, like a pimple or something! 😆

Now I'm off to enjoy that chocolate of mine! First thing in the morning I'm working it off in the gym! 😬💪🏻 I hope you're enjoying your Friday! 🙏🏻

Laters babes!

Over and out 

torsdag 20 april 2017

Going through old pictures

I've been going through old pictures today, it's "throwback Thursday" after all. I love looking at old pictures and falling back into old memories just as if your reading about them in a book. 

I'm not going to pester you with all the pictures I've been going through (especially not since I don't post pictures of others without asking first), but I'll show you a few! 
This is from February 2009, in Venice. I was there with my best friend C. We've been friends since we were 7 years old, and as we know each other so well it's very simple, safe and fun to travel with her. I loved Venice. A very beautiful and interesting city. I remember we walked a lot and I was super impressed that we managed to find our way in the very complex layout of the city, crossing so many bridges we couldn't keep count! 
But, equipped with good shoes we had no problems with walking all day! 
Just as I did when in Rome, Italy, with my mother and sister 2009. Here at Pantheon.
I've visited Thailand so many times I've almost lost count. This picture is from my second visit to Maya bay, Phi Phi Island, 2010. My first visit was 2009, and it's strange that a year could make such a huge difference in a place. There were so many tourists the second time there that I couldn't take a single picture without getting like a hundred strangers in the shot. Which is super sad because this is truly a gorgeous place and we, the tourists, are destroying it with our visits. The spot was used filming "The beach" with Leonardo di Caprio, but I'm guessing he wouldn't even recognise it if going back now.
This is me in 2010, on Koh Hong island, paying my respect and honouring those lost in the terrible tsunami 2004. 
In 2007 I visited Venezuela and the beautiful waterfalls in Canaima.
The one and only time in life so far that I've walked under a waterfall. Amazing feeling!
From our flight to the national park we flew over Angel Falls, the worlds highest uninterrupted waterfall with a height of 979 meters. Very impressive!

I think I'll stop here. I've traveled a lot and telling you about all those travels would be too much! I'll tell you more another time. But for now I'm off to bed!

Over and out 

onsdag 19 april 2017

Early morning workout

I'm starting to like my early morning workouts! It's great to be among the first in the gym, not having to wait for a free treadmill but instead choosing the exact one you want! 👌🏻
As usual I started off with a run and it felt really great! I actually hate running, and I've always have (even when playing soccer for 15 years), but as it's get easier I find it grows on me. Don't get me wrong, I still think it's boring, but as it gets easier I don't mind it as much as before! 
After the run, I focused on my upper body and more precisely on my arms, shoulders and back. Those are my weak areas so I always feel shaky for hours afterwards. I even have a hard time putting on my make up after showering because my arms are shaking so hard! 😜
Tomorrow I'm taking a day off from training but on Friday I'm back at it, first thing in the morning! 💪🏻

Laters babes!

Over and out 

tisdag 18 april 2017

Everyday life

Easter holidays are over and I'm back at work. It's strange how you always so easily get right back into ongoing issues, tasks and/or problems just as if you were never gone in the first place! Sometimes even making you feel like your days off weren't enough to relax and reload you energy depots! Maybe it's because we're closing in on summer vacation? The batteries need more time charging now then in autumn or winter season because you just had that long and relaxing summer vacation.
Anyways, I'm more then tired today so I'm spending my evening on the couch. And it's not just because I had a lot to do at work today after five days off. My daughter slept next to me last night because of a nightmare that she refuse to tell me about. According to her, she'll "have the nightmare again tonight" if she tells me about it. Either way, I love to comfort her and feel her little body cuddling up to me during the night, for about 30 minutes or so. Then I realise a helicopter lies beside me and it's forcing me to move further and further out on the edge of the mattress leaving me to wake up with pain all over my body because I couldn't move or relax my body as I slept - balancing to stay in bed at all! 
You might think my little boy Charlie is tired too, but he's just trying to tell me something, and it's obviously not to feed him. No, this little man doesn't like "old" water. He likes fresh and really old water. That means that the water I gave him this morning is "undrinkable" when I get back home from work. So this is him being kind of pissed that I didn't give him new water before sitting down to eat my dinner. 😜

Tomorrow morning I'm off to the gym again before breakfast and work! I'm meeting up with a colleague (maybe two) at the gym as they open. Looking forward to starting off my day with a workout! 💪🏻🏋

Laters babes!

Over and out 

måndag 17 april 2017

Off the grid

I've been spending time with my family and really enjoyed the time off from obligations and work. Unfortunately that has meant time off from the blog as well. I'll be back again tomorrow when every day life starts off again!
Laters babes!

Over and out 

lördag 15 april 2017

Easter celebrations

And so the feast is over! The Easter dinner with family. Just as I told you yesterday we had a smorgasbord filled with delicacies!

Pickled herring, meatballs, sausages, Jansson's frestelse, potatoes, salad, smoked salmon (two variations - one smoked warm and one cold), raw spiced salmon ("gravad" in Swedish), egg halves with mayo/caviar/shrimps/dill, and some really smelly and delicious cheese. 

And some more...

And for dessert my key lime pie! I know you're not supposed to cover it completely in whipped cream (I added icing sugar and vanilla extract to the cream), but I'm really not good at decorating cakes! It just...happened. 😂
And my sisters specialty; frozen cheesecake as we were celebrating my niece's birthday (and my twinsister and mine as well)!

And as I predicted yesterday I'm feeling all stuffed although it's been hours since the dinner! 😆

Tomorrow I'm going to the gym before breakfast to work some or today's thousands of calories off! 😜

Laters babes!

Over and out

fredag 14 april 2017

Good Friday

I was born on Good Friday quite a few years back. In Swedish it's named "långfredag", which would translate into "long Friday". And I guess for my mother, being in labour that special Friday it was truly a very long day! 

We're celebrating Easter at my sisters house tomorrow. My mother, one of my younger brothers (the other one is in New York), my brother in laws mother, his sister (one of my best friends) with husband and her son with partner is all getting together to celebrate Easter with a big dinner. We're eating a traditional Swedish Easter dinner. That includes boiled eggs (the children paints them before dinner), egg halves topped with shrimps/mayonnaise/dill/caviar, and then smoked salmon, pickled herring (different ones), sausages, salads, Jansson's frestelse (Jansson's temptation - a Swedish casserole with potatoes, onion, anchovy, bread crumbs and cream), meatballs, boiled potatoes and ham. A smorgasbord of delicacies! I'll be sure to take a lot of pictures to show you!
I'm also making a key lime pie for dessert, one of my favourites! I'm sure I'll be feeling stuffed when going home! 😜

After dinner the children will go on an egg hunt, looking for Easter eggs filled with candy! I think I'll be happy with the pie, I've already enjoyed my Easter egg candy, thanks to my great employees at work! 👌🏻

How are you celebrating Easter? 
Laters babes!

Over and out 

onsdag 12 april 2017

Happy birthday and great mentor talks

It's my birthday today! Well, it's actually both mine and my twinsisters birthday today. 40 + some years and I still don't know how to celebrate this day without my twin. Not that we necessarily need to celebrate it together nowadays as we live apart and have our own families that celebrates us separately, but somehow this will never be my special day, this is our special day, as it always has been and always will. ❤️
I was awakened this morning by my little family singing and serving me breakfast in bed, with candles, cake and gifts. And lots of hugs and kisses too. Pampering me in the best way! ❤️

I met up with my mentor and former boss for lunch and we had the best talk I've had in ages! He's a true inspiration and I always leave our meetings feeling filled with new energy and new lines of thoughts to ponder about. I've known him for close to 20 years, and needless to say he knows me very well! He has a huge part in me being where I am, both as a person and in my choice of career. I trust completely in his advices and judgements, so these mentor meetings with him are super important to me! Today it was even more special than usual as it was my birthday and he gave me a book (I told you he knows me) for my birthday! Thank you again, Jonas! You're truly the best! I wish all of you could have a Jonas in your life, that would make this world a better place for everyone!

After work I met up with my family again, and they took me to a cafe for some coffee and cake. ❤️
My husband clearly knows me very well too! Sarah Bernhard bisque are my absolute favourite sweets of them all! Love, love, love them! And a cafe latte too (although I shouldn't drink as much coffee as I do 🙈)!

Now I'm back home and plan on having a lazy evening reading my new book and enjoying some of the chocolate I got from mini me this morning. And some cuddles with Charlie the cat whom seems to be in a very cuddly kind of mood today! ❤️
What a great birthday I've had! So, so happy and thankful for all the great people I have in my life! ❤️ I hope you get to spend your birthdays being as happy as I've been today, no one deserves less on their special day!

Laters babes!

Over and out