fredag 10 november 2017

Life altering changes

I’ve made a decision to go through with some huge changes in my life. I’ll stay away from social media and focus my time on my family and my writing. 
I want to do the right thing, to be present with my family instead of looking into a phone. I don’t want to be missing out on life. Neither my own or my loved ones. 

That means my blogging days are over. I’ve been doing this for over eight years, and I’ve enjoyed it immensely, but there is always an end to everything, and my blog and my blogging has finally come to it’s end. 

Thank you for stopping by, some of you for years and years. Fingers crossed you’ll be reading my text in other forms in the future, preferably in a published book of mine, or ten! ;)

Laters babes!

Over and out
Pusspuss 

torsdag 9 november 2017

Traveling

Tomorrow I fly to Copenhagen for a city weekend. I’ve never traveled alone outside of work like this before so I’m both looking forward to, and feeling a bit anxious about my weekend away from home. It’s a challenge to try and enjoy the city all by myself. Well actually exploring the city is the easy part, it’s the dining thingy that’ll be most challenging. I’m not choosing the easy way out (either dining at McDonalds or by using room service), at least not both nights. 😜

I’ll bring you along and post lot of pictures!

Laters babes!

Over and out
Pusspuss 

onsdag 8 november 2017

I know

I know, I’ve been a terrible blogger these last few days. I’ll try to do better. I haven’t been busy, I just haven’t felt that usual need to write. Strange. But hopefully I’m back at it now!

I’ve had a busy day at work, lots of meetings and interviewing people for a position at my department. As you know I like being busy, and when “being busy” also entails meeting new and interesting people, well then I consider that to be a successful day!

As I’m sure I’ve told you multiple times, this time of year is truly not a favourite of mine. The days are just too short! Arriving at work in the morning when it’s still dark out, and then driving home in darkness too, without having been outside in daylight - I hate that! 
I do admit though, it’s nice to cuddle up on the couch at night and lighting candles, while drinking a cup of tea and relaxing with my kindle at night. And these dark and cold nights are perfect for that! 👌🏻

Only one more workday left this week. On Friday I’m leaving for Copenhagen and a weekend of fun (hopefully). First time ever that I travel on my own (outside of work), and it’s kind of scary. But it’s a challenge, a fun one, that I’m looking forward to experience! Have you traveled on your own?

Laters babes!

Over and out 
Pusspuss 

söndag 5 november 2017

Slow down kind of day


I haven’t been sleeping that much lately, so I decided to take it slow today. And so I did, slowing down and relaxing most of the day accompanied by Charlie the cat. I think I might be his favourite place to rest on. As soon as I sit down on the couch he’s there. And if I don’t make room for him on my lap he just sit there next to me meowing until I do. And I love it. ❤️

I don’t mind at all to be his favourite person, even if in his world that only means he thinks of me as a favourite and very cuddly bed! 😆

Laters babes!

Over and out 
Pusspuss 

lördag 4 november 2017

Your silence does not protect you

There’s this TED-talk that everyone should be forced to sit down and watch. And I mean everyone, man and women, teenagers and old people. Everyone. It’s told by Thordis Elva and Tom Stranger, a rape victim and her rapist. I know, it sounds frightening and painful, provocative, challenging and scary. It is. But it’s so much more too. You find it here! You can also buy their book “South of forgiveness” and read their story.

In an Instagram post today, Thordis Elva writes “Your silence does not protect you.” and she continues “I could not carry on with my life without giving my voice a pair of wings.” I’m sure the words are somewhat out of context, but to me they’re enough to push me forward, away from old tracks. They made me put wings on my own words, making my voice fly too.


Thordis Elva, your voice and the words you gave wings, has made me able to do the same. To voice what I’ve kept hidden and to give my words wings. 
I don’t feel shame (any longer), I know (now) that I was not to blame, but I’ve let this secret of pain and hurt weigh me down for so long, making me lose sight of what matters. It’s been eating, feasting even, on my self worth and strength, weakening me. Even blinding me at times. 

I made a decision earlier this year, and I’ve written about that here on the blog, to forgive the man who did this to me. The man who molested and abused me as a child. For years. A man who spent hours telling me how worthless I was and how I would fail my life, from as early as 8 or 9 years of age. And onwards. He was supposed to be a father figure in my life (not my dad though) but he doesn’t deserve that title, the responsibility connected with it was clearly lost on him.

I’ve been fighting this decision, forgiveness, truly fighting it within, because it made me feel like I was loosing this one final battle with him (although being long gone from my life). If I gave it up, if I let him win, it would mean that I would finally give in and accept what happened. And what was maybe worse, that it would make it ok. My acknowledgment would make it ok. All that happened would have been ok. No one would be punished, because there’s nothing wrong with it ever happening. Things like that are supposed to happen to girls like me. So if I stopped fighting this battle, if I let him win, I would lose myself. 

Then a friend told me: “It’s not a contest. You can neither win nor lose. No matter how long you make this take. You can only choose to let it bring you down or not. You can choose to stay lost or you can find your own way out of it. I will help you if you let me. Be strong. Be you.”
I might have heard words close to this during all these painful years gone by, but this was the first time I really listened. 

So I forgave him. I made a decision and I forgave him. I whispered it. I voiced it out loud. I thought it and I even dreamt about it. 
“I. Forgive. You. It will never be ok. You just don’t do awful and hurtful things like that to another human being, or other living creature for that matter. No matter if they’re young or old. You. Just. Don’t. It’s all kinds of wrongs! But still, I forgive you.”

It’s taken me over twenty years but I’m finally on my path of healing and peace. I made it through. I’m strong and powerful, and I’ll use that strength to put wings on words so that stories like mine or that of Thordis Elva, travels the world until everyone has heard them and the world finally is a safe place for all, no matter your gender, your age, your heritage or what you’re wearing. No matter the story, it needs to be told, to set us free. No more secrets. No more shame. No more fear. I will fight for all those who lost their strength, just like Thordis Elva, Yoga girl or Linnèa Claeson (IG @assholesonline ) and so many more amazing women and men out there. Together we’re strong. Together we’ll change the world!

No is a no is a no!
#metoo
#stillnotaskingforit

Laters babes!

Over and out 
Pusspuss 

fredag 3 november 2017

Short day at work

I left work at 12,30 today, and although being a short day it was completely packed with meetings and urgent issues needing my attention. But after having driven to work in full sunshine this morning, nothing could get me in a bad mood or feeling stressed. Even my heart was filled with smiles! ❤️☀️

Tomorrow I’m planning on sleeping in (usually backfires when you have a five year old in the family, but I’ll try 😆) and enjoying a slow breakfast before leaving mini me at her BFFs house on a play date. And I’m changing tires on my car, well not me exactly, but the guys on the workshop will. It’s been icy a few days this week when driving to work, so I need to get my winter tires on to drive safe. Do you change tires on your car too during winter, or is this a Swedish thing? 

Laters babes!

Over and out
Pusspuss 

torsdag 2 november 2017

Going with the flow


It’s been a busy week at work, and as the daylight is all gone by the time I leave work, this time of year, I’m feeling more tired than usual. It’s like I don’t have more energy left after having left work. I go home, make dinner, take care of the house and then putt mini me to bed. And when I’m all done with that I’m more than ready for bed, but of course that would be way too early so I force myself to stay awake (by working mostly). Reading or watching tv is like asking to sleep, my eyes are closed within minutes. 

Tomorrow is a short day at work though. It’s the day before the Swedish All Hallows’ Eve which means that we only work 4 hours instead of the usual 8, and thereby leaving work around lunchtime (depending on the time you start working). Also meaning that I will get to enjoy daylight tomorrow and hopefully getting an energy refill! Next week is going to be a busy one too, but I’m leaving for Copenhagen on Friday so I’ll only be working Monday to Thursday. It’s going to be a fun trip, for sure. I love Copenhagen, it’s a beautiful city. 🙏🏻

Now I’m off to bed though. Need to close my eyes for a bit. 😬

Laters babes!

Over and out 
Pusspuss 


tisdag 31 oktober 2017

Slow night

Haven’t really been doing anything productive since I got home from work. Have you? I’ve been looking online for new furniture to our new apartment, but as I don’t have the correct measurements yet it’s really just a waste of time. I won’t be ordering anything before I know it’ll fit the room. Been there, done that. 

Buying my own first apartment, quite a few years back (but let’s not get sidetracked here 😜) I ordered all the furniture before having gotten the keys to the apartment. The couch and the two armchairs I had imagine to be perfect, turned out to be huge in that living room and claimed most of the space, making it feel cramped. And the kitchen table didn’t fit the kitchen at all, so I had to return it. So this time around I’m waiting until I can measure the rooms before placing an order. 😜 But at least I got an idea of what I want.

Now I’m off to bed though. I have an early morning workout in the gym planned first thing tomorrow. Need to be at my best = well rested for that.

Laters babes!

Over and out
Pusspuss 


måndag 30 oktober 2017

Busy day but still...

Busy day at work but still time to goof around in between meetings (with a little, or a lot, of help from Snapchat). It’s Halloween 🎃 so had to go with that!

Wore my new ring today, and it’s going to be a favourite for sure.

Very suitable also regarding where I work (The Swedish Species Information Centre)! I’m going to ask one of the biologists which species this is specifically. 😜
It’s a ring from Johanna N. You find here here:
Instagram/Twitter/Facebook: johannanswe
And you can buy her beautiful jewellery here

Laters babes!

Over and out 
Pusspuss 

söndag 29 oktober 2017

Sunday funday my way

Sunday’s funday, right! Well in that case I’ll spend it my kind of fun - with my nose down a book! In my pjs. On the couch. Drinking tea (and/or a cafe latte) and eating dark chocolates. 👌🏻

And no, I didn’t stay dressed in my pjs all day. I would have, if I was home alone, but being a mother of a five year old kind of gives you obligations. So, I dressed and went for a walk in the cold with mini me and hubby. It was not really pleasant, weather wise. It’s freezing cold outside! 😳

But, when coming back home again I warmed myself in a hot bubble bath and then slipped into that comfy pj again. Dating my kindle of and on, most of the day. Got to enjoy that last day of vacation before going back to work. 😜📚❤️

Laters babes!

Over and out 
Pusspuss